Monthly Archives: February 2014

Remembrance.

It’s been 20 days since this entire ordeal of health issues started and I am happy to report that I have finally had two days in a row where I haven’t needed any pain medication. That’s definitely a jump up from anything that has previously been happening. So what changed? Why the sudden turn around?

I stopped feeling sorry for myself and letting fear take hold. 

I’m a really really positive person normally and I became a person I didn’t like the last two weeks. I KNEW that if I kept my mood up that it would help me, but I just couldn’t see any way out through blinding pain. I was in crisis mode. I was scared of what was happening to my body. How long it would take to get back dancing. How long it would be until a doctor could help me. 

After a long talk with a friend of mine, yesterday morning I decided to call in my spirit guides and surrender to what was. To surrender my fear. To surrender my anxiety. To let the Universe take hold of where my health was at and help me heal. And I started feeling better. 

In the last two days I haven’t let my fear take hold and have instead been trying to help my body heal with tons of rest. 

Sometimes, we have bad days, or trying times in our lives. We have to be gentle with ourselves and others. 

And I need to remember that more power and beauty lies in my own heart and soul than I choose to use in times of crisis. I have the ability to heal my mind and my soul and my heart. I really need to just do that. 

That was my lesson this week. Trust, surrender, let go and use your power. 

 

Hope.

What can I say? 

Its been a scary couple of weeks. 

Today my doctor confirmed I have tendon “issues”. Basically,  I have tendintis in almost every tendon from the knee down in my right leg.  I have been given only the answer of its going to take time. I have to keep resting,  put heat on it, and probably need physio.  

What iis terrible is the fact that I only took two doses of Cipro. Why is a drug like this even on the market? 

I aam frustrated and trying to keep my head up because I must keep positive to get better. 

I am going to get healthy again. 

I am going to dance everyday again.

I am going to survive. 

I am strong. 

Health.

Well. I have had quite the health scare this past week and a half. 

I went to the emergency room a week and a half ago with pain in my lower back around where my kidney is. I’d had suspected kidney stones before and a couple kidney infections so I knew I had to get looked at soon.

Long story short, without having a full confirmation that I had an infection I was prescribed an antibiotic called ciproflaxacin.  After just two doses of this drug my right leg began swelling. 

I have been in and out of hospitals 4 times in the last week. The swelling turned to pain in my tendons ligaments muscles and joints in that leg. 

I have been in such excruciating pain that I am now on percocets. 

Doctors have been doing batteries of tests. My major concern was a blood clot but I have since had no signs of that through tests. 

That drug is known to cause tendonitis and tendon rupture.  I believe all the symptoms I am experiencing are related to that drug. I’ve found hundreds of stories just like mine online. I haven’t been able to walk in 6 days. I am on crutches.  

I believe this drug caused a toxicity of my system. Right now my biggest goal is to ccompletely detox and cleanse my body of this and any other toxins.  

This has tested me to the very core. I am a dancer. That is my livelihood.  To say I have felt devastated over the last week and a half is an understatement. 

Thankfully, I have friends who are supportive and knowledgeable in cleansing the body. 

For the first time today i am feeling a glimmer of hope again.  I will fight this. I will gain back my health. 

I will survive…duh…that’s what I do. 

 

Ps- don’t take cipro or levaquin or related drugs. Bad bad bad no no no!!!