I connect to the innermost parts of my heart of hearts and soul of soul.
I connect with the universe as a whole.
I connect with nature.
I connect with animals and other humans and beings.
I connect with my inner being, the divine within.
I remember, I remember.
I am burst wide open with joy and possibility.
Letting go of the ego.
Letting go of shame.
Letting go of guilt.
I WILL BE.
BECAUSE MY SOUL IS ALIVE.
AND I CAN.
As much as darkness can creep into the heart of a person with a dis-ease, a day like this sure can brighten up the sour-est mood. What a beauty!
I walked home today. Raised my face to the sun and let it’s energy pour down over me like a waterfall. I feel so at peace in the sunshine. Yay beautiful days! ❤
Yesterday, I re-registered myself for EMDR therapy. I needed to take a break from people in general for a bit, so I deactivated my Facebook. Unlike times when I withdraw from people because I am feeling the need to re-charge, this is different. This time, I know I need to focus on my healing. I feel so right on the path I’m on right now.
As I talked about in the video I posted below, EMDR was the one therapy that really “clicked” for me. It was a very quick progression as well. I was seeing results in as little as 3 sessions. I want nothing more than to continue that process and really focus on it.
So at least until the end of the month, this will be where I talk, where I post updates. No Facebook, no other social media. etc.
And well, that was strange, my therapist just called me as I was typing this! First appointment is next Wednesday. Not only that, but it was 4:44 pm when he called, which if you watched my video, 444 is a very significant number for me. That was crazy!
Anyways, onwards and upwards!
This is in response to my “coming out” the other day. Talking more about what it means to have C-PTSD and life in general. It’s a long one, but I needed to talk it out. A friend of mine said something very true the other day. He told me that when we write, we “edit” our words and thoughts, but when we speak, it flows. So I let it flow. ❤